once i read an article which started with something like this, "there is no such thing as ‘growing old happily’ for women.  if there are women who say that, they are either women in the 20’s who don’t know what it means to grow old, or women in their 50’s who are deceiving themselves…."

i was rather shocked with the statement, because i honestly thought that people could actually make peace with the fact that growing old is inevitable, and simply be happy that they are healthy…. well, after all, i belonged to the first group, anyway.  so i guess maybe the author was partly right, i did not know what it means to grow old.

i simply want to grow old gracefully.

accepting the fact that my body will not be the one i used to know.  realizing that some things will not be meant for me to wear.  reminding myself that some things which used to look good on younger people might look simply ridiculous for me.

there are some elderly women that i love to see.  they are beautiful in their own ways, some make up, sure, still look fashionable, but just great in the way they are.

some other elderly women….. freak me out.  i saw women who try to wear things designed for teenagers. who put tons of make up to hide the crows feet appearing on their skin, which actually highlights them.

i want to grow old gracefully.

and i should have known, that the saying "be careful with what you wish for" should have been etched forever in my brain by now.  emoticon

now, comes the test.  growing grey hair in you twenties is certainly not the most graceful way to grow old… emoticon but, then, it starts teaching me a beginner’s lesson on growing old. 

what do you do about it?

many people start asking me, why don’t i dye my hair black, or red, or blue… or whatever… ( i will normally say, ‘been there, done that… i think it might worsen the situation’)

many people even offered to pull the grey hair out… (to which i always say, ‘please don’t, or else i’ll be bald instead of having a little grey hair…’)

but then again, this is me, and this is my body.  and besides, this might be the answer to my ‘wish’…hehehehehe…

what i will do about it, hmmm…i still don’t know…

for now, i’m practising different responses for different scenarios, hehehehe  emoticon 

 

lessons learnt:

  • be very very very careful with what you wish for…. emoticon
  • if you say you want to do something a certain way, you’d better have an idea on how to do it when the time comes… emoticon