fragments of life, points to ponder, EnglishJanuary 30, 2008 3:43 pm

Choices…are you lucky, or unlucky?

When you have to face several options at the same time, do you usually consider yourself as being lucky, or unlucky?
During those moments when you have a chance to create an option, would you simply try to stick with what is there, or would go for it and create a possibility for yourself?

Many of us belong to a group of people one of my dearest colleagues calls as “safety player”, do you get what he meant?  emoticon  Hehe…. What he actually meant were people who like to play it safe.  You know, not taking risks, not taking decisions, putting a lot of efforts simply by trying to be safe.  Many of us feel like being stuck, and yet, are too afraid to let go of the “devil we know” for the unknown one(s).  

And for some people, choices seem to always come at the least fortunate timing.  You know those moments when more than one opportunity come knocking and you are left utterly confused and frightened.  Would I make the best option? What would happen if I choose this?  How about that? What if….this….What if …that….  A zillion of “if”s haunting your sleepless nights…  Hm, sounds familiar?

So then again, what are you when you are in such situation?  Do you consider yourself to be lucky?  Or unlucky, instead?
Would you be happier if you are stuck in a situation where you simply want to get out, but just don’t know where to… or when you are cursing yourself for not being able to make up your mind?

Sometime…well, correction, very often, life and people surprise me a lot.
There are times when my own life and people around me take a sudden turn that I never thought was possible.  And at other times, I was simply dying to push myself, and other people (strictly for positive reasons…by the way emoticon) off the cliff and fly away.

To my Friends, MS and MM (hey guys, you even have similar initials..)

To one of you I would really feel like congratulating…  I never thought you would have the guts to take the path you are taking right now.  To be honest, I always knew you have better things to do than sitting around leading a “normal” life, but what you choose to do right now is really out of this world. Hope you are faring well…

To the other one I would really love to say, take the jump.  If you fall, you’ll fall.  But knowing you, I think you would not fall that far.  You know what, I think we should start appreciating ourselves better.  And if these people don’t appreciate you enough, maybe then, they don’t deserve you. I never thought that someday I would agree to this statement, me a “safety player” emoticon at heart…, but now I come to realize that indeed, it is better to know whether we fail or succeed, better to try our chances and know what’s at the end of the tunnel, rather than asking ourselves, “What would have happened IF….”

And yes, Mizz, I AM asking myself.  
What would I do in six months time?  Would I end up doing this? Or would I end up doing that?  Would I end up trying to survive? Or would I end up leaving commitments in the trash bin?  Would I find myself celebrating Christmas 2008 here, or there?  Or what?  

And if life chooses not to be so complicated, I guess it would not be this fun.  So yes, I guess I am lucky, though in a couple of months I might reverse my opinion emoticon

How about you?  Are you taking risks?  I hope they are all worth taking.

fragments of life, English, Bahasa IndonesiaJanuary 29, 2008 10:50 am

Jumat yang penuh kejutan…
Thanks to technology…mungkin.

Pertama-tama sih memang aku sudah senang, Jumat gitu lho…menghitung hari-hari dalam satu minggu yang sebagian kuhabiskan dengan kehilangan suara…halah….cape’ deh.  Dan juga counting down the days untuk ketemu lagi sama si “Mamas” yang abis pulang kampung…asik…ketemu lagi deh minggu depan…

Anyway, ternyata Jumat itu mengandung banyak kejutan yang jauh lebih…WAH….sampe pulang kantor sibuk cengar-cengir sendiri…hueheheheh…

Berawal dari diajarinnya aku sama si bapak ini untuk pakai sebuah software yang bisa bikin berbagai account IM bisa dibuka barengan…  Setelah kutak-kutik yang bikin rada-rada mumet…(thanks ya bo’…untuk long distance tutorialnya…hehe…), akhirnya jalan deh. Dan…voila..muncullah sebuah nama teman luama buangets di Buddies list, halah, emang account yang satu itu jarang dibuka. Meskipun si Sniper Boy itu lagi offline, gak masalah, la wong sebenernya aku sendiri udah ga ngebayangin bisa liat namanya lagi, huehehehe.

Ketak-ketik sana sini ngerjain file yang ga abis-abis…(kok bisa ya…hehe…), tiba-tiba telepon ‘kantor’ku berdering, SMS.  Ada sebuah nomor terpampang, dengan pertanyaan yang terdengar sangat akrab gitu, tanya informasi.  Tapi kok ga nongol ya namanya, puter otak diriku coba mengingat-ingat, kira-kira nomor siapa ya ini, kayaknya kok tiga digit terakhir familiar, tapi bener-bener ga ketemu.  Daripada buang-buang waktu dan tenaga, kubalas saja lah…dengan pertanyaan standard…’maaf ini siapa ya..’

Eng ing eng…ternyata oh ternyata…’kawan’ lama rupanya…  Aduh sorry ya Mas, sampai lupa nomor teleponmu.  Emang HP yang kupakai ini kadang jadi biang kerok, satu nomor kena double saving, konflik deh, malah ga muncul namanya sama sekali.  Gini deh kejadiannya.  Saking ga enaknya, aku telpon saja lah yang bersangkutan.  Dan seru juga, asik, sumpe…  Jujur aja, ga kebayang bahwa bisa ngobrol dan ketawa-ketawa lagi kayak gitu sama si mas yang satu itu…dan ga ada nada-nada sinis yang kutakutkan..  Asli, Thank God banget..  

Balik makan siang ternyata ID Sniper Boy di IMku udah blinking green…wah, online dia. Dengan diawali sebuah sapaan singkat, kami berakhir dengan chat yang ga terlalu panjang…tapi asik punya…  Ya ampyun…seneng banget rasanya…  Gile bener, udah berapa tahun ya ga kontakan…mungkin 2 atau 3 tahun kali…wah…ga kebayang.  Tapi obrolan tetep seru kayak ga pernah ada jarak.  Wow, technology is really something…across time and continents gitu lho…

Abis itu dapet telepon deh dari Mamas, hehe….jelas itu highlight of the day..eh..iya ga ya..  Itu biasanya highlight of the day, tapi berhubung hari itu ada banyak kejutan lain….mmm…gimana ya… mungkin one of the highlights of the day deh.

Pulang kantor udah dengan cengiran lebar…ih, seru banget hariku.  Tapi ternyata, ga brenti sampai di situ.   Udah siap-siap bikin dinner sendiri, nyalain TV sendiri, mikir-mikir mau ngapain aja weekend sendiri… eh, berdering lagi deh HPku… Kali ini tak lain dan tak bukan…. Sahabatku yang lagi terdampar di benua sebelah rumah… Hi Dek, how’s Aussie? Jadilah berbincang-bincang tentang liburannya di sana, tentang rencana kami masing-masing tahun ini…

Wow…wow….wow…what a WOW Friday.  

Aku seneng banget menutup minggu itu dengan hari yang begitu manis.  Bersyukur banget hidupku disentuh, pernah dan masih dan semoga terus…, oleh orang-orang yang begitu baik.  Yang meninggalkan kenangan hangat dan pertemanan, yang semoga, abadi.

Guys, thanks for dropping by…  You all gave me the right start to a weekend full of being lazy…

Banda Aceh, with a big grin remembering Friday, January 25, 2008