There comes love….
Stealing…stalking like a bird of prey…
There comes love…
Without knocking, without warning…
Drifted away when invited, sulking, deceiving, refusing to enter…
And yet, come uninvited into the vastness of a desperate heart,
Looking for some kind of clues, that it is able to love again…
Or even, that it is ever able to love…
Whoever…whenever…whatever the circumstances.
There goes love…
Without goodbye, without foreword…without explanation
Materialized out of thin air…
Vanished into the depth of the universe…
So, what is love? How does it come and go, just like that?
Is there any equation of love? Will there be any answer? Any limit? Any fool in the world trying to comprehend it?
And yet, everyone is a fool, trying to find the answers to all the unanswerable questions and mysteries…
The question that each and every single human being seeks for its answer, a question that will remain a mystery….
Especially for me…
For now…
Of what I am…and how come I am the way I am…and I feel the way I feel…
How come I feel the things I don’t want to feel…
And how come the many wonderful things I want to feel simply drift away from my senses…
Banda Aceh, September 9, 2006
I think I love you….
I feel I love you…
but do I really love you….
because there are you…you…you…and me…
and I still struggle to love ME.
